Lyrics

Rooted (Rotted)


These roots are deep and these roots spread wide –
everything to excess, like some kind of self-inflicted punishment.
I keep your words in my ribcage sometimes.

A diamond and a bat on the twelfth fret.
Your edges are faded and your strings are rust and faded.
I dread these thoughts of you and us, each smell and each touch bleeds colors from the cuts.

The waves that crash on the shores of your mind pull you to sea, one grain at a time.
We orbit the same body, but on different planes in different songs.
I don’t turn the page for hours on end because every line gets stuck in my head.
We all break at some point and then rebuild ourselves to do it again.



We Don't Have a Place in the Stars


I have things of yours that you can never get back,
like time and tears and miles and secrets from your past,
not to mention every shred of your innocence.

The windows of your heart are battened for me,
but we both cut our teeth and knees on the same streets,
so here’s to you and me and what we used to be.

I swear, these start as angry songs, but they always turn sad,
because I’ve got this unshakable, misplaced faith in our spark.

And I think I’ll always carry this torch for you while you hold on to nothing but rancor.
Yes, I think I’ll always carry this torch while you just try to forget.

You flag’s been flying at half mast and you can’t hide it, it’s been four and a half years of mourning through a thin veil of tact.
Don’t forget that leaving was your call, and now I fear that our place in the stars is more likely six feet underground.

I swear, these start out as angry songs, but they always turn sad,
because this familiar silence turns to familiar black.



Silver and Gold (Shiver and Cold)


We shiver through our empty sheets on tired springs in lonely suites
and I wake up in your dawn’s new dew, but I don’t have faith and I don’t have you.

My conversations with constellations are lacking tact,
and I walk a widow’s walk on most nights and I see that

There is no light, there is no life in the world below me.
And we were safe, but bound, misplaced, but found in morning’s bright eyes.

Carefully listen and you’ll hear the songs of muted damp.
So take my blood, my only muse. It’s shades of black and shades of blue.

You keep the things that make you hurt in a music box, and the tempest of your spirit shakes the docks.

Collapsing stars have fates like ours, or so they’ve told me.
We keep the company of misery and all his colleagues.

Something calls, yes, something crawls to me from somewhere
that is cold and still and I know I will see you there.



Well After Quiet Hours (Lying in the Dirt)


We erode at different rates, I memorize you and your shape.
I’ll plant your memory somewhere safe from the elements and fate.
Then I collided with your black sky aesthetic
and spent the night charting your skin.

And the sunrise paints you in warm colors that I don’t relate to
and now you’re just another night that I wish I’d never met.

I’ll sing to you from this distant coast, I know you’re not listening though.
I think of quiet hours in the dirt below the monument.
your voice echoes somewhere on the horizon and suddenly, the music starts.

There’s nothing serendipitous about this,
we knew it all along.



Husks and Empty Things


there’s no difference between ghost tales and love stories: nothing but pale-eyed dreams with grieving and white sheets.

with every darkened sky, and a little lie, another day goes by without thinking about you. we’re husks and we are empty things, but i’m letting it go and not thinking about you.

it’s hard to feel much hope beyond a chair and rope. i don’t feel like i did. you don’t feel anything.



Summer Song With Rain


everybody wants directions to somewhere far away from home
but i won’t tell you my prediction because you want to keep the hope.
if i live tomorrow, it’s sins and sorrows.
so i’ll close my tomb while you’re in bloom,
i’ll close my tomb and i’ll assume that i will wilt away while you grow.
singing summer songs is hiding the things i’m really trying to say,
so let’s talk about bereavement and giving everything away.
it’s hard to swallow that our hearts are borrowed.
seasons come and seasons go,
i am a season, you should know.
not tonight, maybe in another life.


Well After Quiet Hours


we erode at different rates, i memorize you and your shape.
i’ll plant your memory somewhere safe from the elements and fate.
then i collided with your black sky aesthetic
and spent the night charting your skin.

and the sunrise paints you in warm colors that i don’t relate to
and now you’re just another night that i wish i’d never met.

i’ll sing to you from this distant coast, i know you’re not listening though.
i think of quiet hours in the dirt below the monument.
your voice echoes somewhere on the horizon and suddenly, the music starts.

there’s nothing serendipitous about this,
we knew it all along.



Once a Villain, Always a Villain


headlines boast that we’re out of luck
because this neighborhood’s just not the same,
and when you get that look and turn all blue in the face,
lawyers of the highest esteem couldn’t argue your denial.

what a flattering impression of caring about me,
like the most depressing fairy tale.

so good luck with twenty-two in a most sarcastic way,
and no i’m not your classic gentleman
because when you go, i’ll leave you with that classic hangover,
and some good old fashioned withdrawal.

we’re a slow swing in the spring,
full swing into halftime.
and all that certificate says is “my best days have passed”
and another dose of vaccine won’t keep away the feeling.

all i see is green, it must be the villain that’s inside of me.

we are the skeletons clawing at your closet door,
old habits die hard.



Bad News for Blue Eyes


can you hear the whispers in the woodwork?
or the secrets that are climbing the stairs?
this house hums a cadence, but i doubt you’ve ever heard it before.

so tell me, what will make you shake these days,
aside from restless nights and restless minds?

we are just shadows of our former selves,
whose ghosts seem to wander through these scarred, old halls.
and time’s had it’s way with us.

we’re composed of so many famous last words,
all so genuine and counterfeit,
and where’s all that loyalty you always carried on and on about?

so tell me, what has been your best disguise?
don’t pin it on that hollow-hearted smile.

reading your old notes is having your fossils in my hands,
only no curator gives a damn.



Death, Taxes, and Losing All Your Friends


i’m no more the vindictive type than dorian is vain,
and it’s not really jealousy,
it’s more of a friendly heads up that your idols are false,
and of course that’s a “friendly” with a big pair of quotes.

i’m not going to win any diplomacy contest,
and i’m getting sick of trying.

here’s to you and your ex-prodigy for giving up on me,
lying and cheating in the gloried name of liars and cheats.
they’re all going to figure you out,
whether it’s one way or another.

i hope you’ve enjoyed your coronation,
because before too long, we’re going to forget everything about you
but you know the heart of deceit
is always open to a two-face like you.

every night, i remind myself at least i’m not you,
because your conversations are pathetic in stereo.



Letters From Home


last night i dreamed that you were right where i wanted you,
and you were leaning on me at the bar,
but instead i’m in the corner by myself looking down at my sneakers,
the ones you picked out for me.

wasting yourself like this is such a shame,
and yea i am a child and i’ll never change.

i wonder if he’ll notice the space on your bedroom wall
where our picture used to hang,
but maybe then you’d realize you haven’t smiled like that since.
but what’s the point at this point?

i have to ask, what does your mother think of him?
and by the way, you know that place is a sham?
birds sing to remind you he’s just filling your empty nest,
can’t we just fast forward to where you figure this out?

hiding yourself like this is such a shame,
and yea i am a child and i’ll never change.



You're Killin Me, Smalls


everything is gone, everything has changed,
i punched my own ticket for this guilt trip.
he makes you so happy, i get it.
if this is the plan, then count me out.

to hell with your resentment, it’s got nothing on mine.
so tell me all about him.

don’t let your jaw hang, honey,
you’re so much prettier in poise.
oh nostalgia, i’ll do anything you say.

pace the hallway and wait for him to get home,
we’ve had our last late night; it’s colder, not closer.
you still smell like me, i know it.
it’s lose-lose for me, which means you win-win.

just say it, you’re leaving, or you’re already gone.



Questions and Answers With Childhood Heroes (Flashbacks and Migraines With the Patron Saint of Girls Like You)


we’re a touch medicated, and count on doc to keep us ageless,
but with all the same flaws,
dog-eared volumes of the cheapest fiction
in a flat out sprint down the tarmac
after my sweet sixteen.

cutting curfew and hemorrhaging our days like devouts,
you may have figured out the argot,
but i doubt you have the heart.

i think it’s time you come home,
because we’ve become a bunch of hopeless romantics, minus the romance.
and yes, it’s time for bed, sleepyhead,
get that car up to eighty-eight.

got these prayers down to a science, but put god’s face on the milk cartons,
if the world is a stage, i’m way off the key and a deer in the headlights.
wedded to this crusade, i’ll only entertain bribes in the form of you.

half my friends i recall by some lie or another, or their new time zones,
but i never did recover from leaving you crying in the street.



This Whole Scene is a Ghost Town


since when are you characters in someone else’s story?
and you’re not a solution to our problems,
you’re just another problem.

if you’re wondering why this applause sounds more like crickets,
then maybe you should consider how that white flag hangs
from every word you say.

and it feels like i’m the only kid still kicking,
i’m the only one who still believes.
you all sound just like the folks you hoped you’d never grow up to be,
so i guess its up to me.

if this is just a tomb, then there is only room enough for me,
and i bet that you carry pictures of yourselves inside your lockets.

if you’re wondering why this applause sounds more like crickets,
then maybe you should consider that you’re just imposters
of our former idols.

maybe i’m just renting this whole scene,
but at least i’m not selling it out.



You Deserve This Enough to Make Up For the Fact That I Probably Don't


i’ve been tracing your outline on my wall
because our silhouettes look like the valentine skeletons,
only more sincere.

it seems like everybody’s falling in love, but not like this,
and everybody’s got plans, but not like these.

i want to speak every dialect of you,
and hang you in each gallery.
i will concede, i’ve been conspiring to lock you down forever.

i force myself to sleep just to see you again,
so reluctantly beautiful, like bad news has a gun to your back,
and a grip on your throat.

watch the sun set on our favorite scars,
and take your hand on a crashing plane,
just to make sure we don’t spend another moment apart.

i feel like we should be filmed in black and white
and called a classic.



Someone Who Shall Remain Nameless (You)


at best this is me dodging a bullet and at worst i’m giving myself away again.
but most of the time, i’m just a narcissist in pessimists clothing,
or a string of one liners.

considering all the other stuff i’m on, i’ve got to find a way to stay off you,
despite my pitiful self restraint.

sooner or later, this will all haunt me,
and lately i’ve been the flagship of regret.
take it or leave it, but my reputation says i don’t write love songs,
i ruin them.

i’m throwing the fight, so yea we’re going down,
and i’m like a pin up junkie, and you are my dealer.
it’s so hard not to act dumb and reckless when i’m so young and helpless,
not to mention a liar.

charges are pending and you’re the key witness,
so don’t blame me for doing what i do best.
in due time you’ll think of me as another misstep,
or maybe you’re already there.